Been a long time!

Apparently it's been a year since I've written last! Not so easy when they only form of internet I have here is my phone! Oh well I will try to get better at this! 

What's new with me?!? 

Well I am engaged! :) and will be married on Sept 20th 2014!!! We have an awesome wedding party! I'm looking forward to everything coming together and spending the day celebrating our love with the people we love most! 

Dacotah is getting older :( suffering from some arthritis in his back leg (one he broke as a pup) but he's still full of love and attitude!! 

I recently took a CNA course to hopefully find new work closer to home but as the class ended and it all got so much more real I've had second thoughts about switching jobs right now. So many reasons, few being, I'm comfortable where I am I may not always enjoying it but I like knowing what's expected of me and knowing what I'm doing is right. Another being I'm getting married in less than 9 months, not sure if I want to throw the stress of a new job on top of the stress of planning a wedding. Not that the planning had been to bad so far but needing to arrange for time off having the flexibility to be able to come and go as needed is something that I know I'll have with my current job. Another thing is my benefits, not so much the health and dental that's pretty basic but my vacation time is great! Not many places offer that much time away and after being there for 5 years I've accrued an extra week. If I start somewhere else I'm starting back in the bottom of the totumn pole again, really not sure I want to do that just yet! I know that when we decide to have children I am going to have to switch to something/somewhere different, my current position isn't idea for a pregnant person, too many risks! So I've been thinking that maybe I will pick up a part time CNA position, that way I get my schooling reimbursed, I'll have some extra money coming in for the wedding and I also can try to figure out if that's the route I really want to go without giving up what's I've got right now. So far it's just a thought but it seems like the most logical one. 

I will soon be an auntie! Eric and Annaleah are expecting in May! They aren't finding out the sex of the baby, which of course is liking me! But I'm super excited to have a little niece or nephew to spoil!!

Well this has pretty much been my 2013 in a but shell! So much going on in 2014 to look forward too! Happy New Year everyone!!!

Weight Loss

I'm at it again! Last time I got serious about this weight loss stuff I lost 30 lbs, since then I have gained back about 20 of them 15 which have come since I've moved to Litchfield! Ugh!!!! The reason i feel i have put on a lot of the weight again is because there is food here that I refused to have when I lived in St Cloud! The only food i would buy would be healthier food! But now here Dustin isn't as food cautious so there are more options of food here and most of them being TERRIBLE snacks!!!

Well I have now become serious about it again and so far I am down 9!!! The difference between this time than last time is I am trying to gradually lose weight, one step at a time! Rather than starting off with everything and then quitting after a couple months I have decided to change my way of eating, I tried a drastic change by going with 2 shakes a day and then a regular meal...that failed big time!!!! So now I'm going back to what worked last time, weight watchers! But this time I am actually doing it with the full program. I have joined weight watchers online and I'm loving it! This new program gives you wiggle room so you don't have to be perfect! I work out a couple times a week and once I get really good at this food selection I plan to up my working out to at least 5 times a week! I'm hoping with the gradual change I can keep this up longer and make it be a permanent routine in my life!!!

Now if only I can get Dustin eating better it would be a lot easier for me to keep up with it!!!!

Christmas Movies

I love this time of year for a lot if reasons but mostly for the movies!!! I LOVE Christmas movies!!!! There are a lot of good ones out there but National Lampoons Christmas Vacation is my favorite!!!! I love it for all of the good quotes!!! To name a few:
"Clark: Hey! If any of you are looking for any last-minute gift ideas for me, I have one. I'd like Frank Shirley, my boss, right here tonight. I want him brought from his happy holiday slumber over there on Melody Lane with all the other rich people and I want him brought right here, with a big ribbon on his head, and I want to look him straight in the eye and I want to tell him what a cheap, lying, no-good, rotten, four-flushing, low-life, snake-licking, dirt-eating, inbred, overstuffed, ignorant, blood-sucking, dog-kissing, brainless, dickless, hopeless, heartless, fat-ass, bug-eyed, stiff-legged, spotty-lipped, worm-headed sack of monkey shit he is! Hallelujah! Holy shit! Where's the Tylenol?"

"Where do you think you're going? Nobody's leaving. Nobody's walking out on this fun, old-fashioned family Christmas. No, no. We're all in this together. This is a full-blown, four-alarm holiday emergency here. We're gonna press on, and we're gonna have the hap, hap, happiest Christmas since Bing Crosby tap-danced with Danny fucking Kaye. And when Santa squeezes his fat white ass down that chimney tonight, he's gonna find the jolliest bunch of assholes this side of the nuthouse."

Aunt Bethany: "Is your house on fire, Clark?"
Clark: "No, Aunt Bethany, those are the Christmas lights."

Clark: "Can I refill your eggnog for you? Get you something to eat? Drive you out to the middle of nowhere and leave you for dead?"
Eddie: "Naw, I'm doing just fine, Clark"

"Merry Christmas. Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, kiss my ass. Kiss his ass. Kiss your ass. Happy Hanukkah."

"Merry Christmas, Shitter was full"

Ruby Sue: "Rocky bit my thumb. Him's nervous"
Clark: "Nervous or excited?"
Ruby Sue: "Shittin' bricks"
Clark: "You shouldn't use that word.
Ruby Sue: Sorry. Shittin' rocks"

There's a few I should stop before I quote the whole movie! I used to watch this movie everyday from Thanksgiving until New Years. Sometimes people hate watching this movie with me because I will recite the whole thing!! I just can't help myself!

Some other good movies are of course the classics: Santa Claus is coming to Town, Rudolph, Frosty the Snowman, Home Alone 1 & 2, A Christmas Story and etc. Then some newer ones like Elf, The Grinch, Polar Express, The Santa Claus and etc!

Those are just to name a few. There are a ton or other great Christmas movies out there!

I LOVE CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!'

Attitude!

I've recently read a blog someone else had written about needing/wanting a better/more positive attitude. It really hit home for me. Since I can remember I have always been reminded or told that I need to "change my attitude"! Heck, my grandmother even made up and "Attitude Adjustment Song" that she sang to me quite often! There wasn't much to it besides signing "attitude adjustment" in a high pitch but stern tone over and over again. But it shows that I have a terrible attitude! I have never been one to take a compliment well or look for the brighter side of things. I dwell on the crap that's happening and that gets me down. I have noticed myself in a terrible slump lately an I can't seem to get myself out of it! I have terrible thoughts of my self body image and terrible self esteem! I have found things to turn this around short term but I can't seem to stick with it! I have no reason to be so down I have a patient wonderful man who loves me and helps me with whatever he can, I have a great and supportive family, wonderful friends who will tell me how it is and don't pussy foot around my feelings, and an amazing dog who is always there for me and seems to understand when I need him the most! I need/want all of this! I have a decent job, not alway easy and I believe it has a lot to do with my negative mindset but things could be worse! I read a quote on Facebook today and I think it fits here "Sometimes you have to give up on the life you've planned, to have the life that is waiting for you" I have a lot of regrets, not so much for things I have done but for things that I had planned on doing and didn't do because life took a different turn. I wish I could remember more often that the things I have done/not done are what have led me to those I love and cherish so much in my life!! I want to take this time to thank everyone in my life for anything and everything they have done for me! And to let you know that from this day forward I am going to try to be more positive and look for the brighter things in life!!!! I love you all!! :-D

Below are some pictures of some of those people I love! I wasn't able to get everyone so I'm sorry if I missed you but this is a good start!

I have to figure this crap out on a computer!!

It's way to confusing on my phone. I'll be back!